I have spent far too much time these past few months doing research, writing and talking to attorneys to try to protect my family.
It has put a pall over everything. As if it’s not hard enough to go through holidays missing my mother-in-law from our celebrations. I have spent every holiday and birthday with her for the past 15-16 years. We were so very close. So, things that should be purely happy are not, but it’s not because of mourning, it’s because of other ugliness.
I try to put up a good face, but with the legal crap, the ugly threats and unreasonable demands, this is probably the hardest time of my life. I don’t remember being this upset when I was married to an abusive husband. This is more like the terror I felt the night he showed up uninvited and unexpectedly in the middle of the night at my new home, after I thought I had escaped him, or the night I’d discovered my car’s brake lines had been cut shortly thereafter.
I feel betrayed, terrorized and know that it’s entirely unnecessary. So, on top of all of that, I feel frustrated, disgusted by their greed and hurt. It seems as if there is no good resolution at this point.
I have tried to keep this out of my blog. However, it’s top of mind and keeps pushing everything else away, so here it is; the unvarnished truth.